STELLER, RILEY JORDAN

[, riley jordan steller!]

RILEYJORDANSTELLER

'ALRIGHT NOW THAT WE KNOW YOU NAME LETS GET DOWN TO BASICS. WHY DID YOUR PARENTS NAME YOU THAT? ANY BIG SIGNIFICANCE TO YOUR NAME?'

my dad said that my name always meant a little more to them than brayden's, being the older twin i got the name they really wanted to name their son. of course, brayden was named after mom's brother, who is important nonetheless but my dad mentioned that one of their best friends in high school (who actually introduced them) was named riley jordan. he died in a drunk driving accident and was killed instantly. they said he had a glow to him that people loved and since my mom is actually from alaska where they recycle names to recycle souls, she found it very appropriate to name me after him. i don't think i could live up to the kind of guy he was, from the sounds of it, he was an all around great guy who was loved by everyone. and then there's me...

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HOW ABOUT YOUR AGE, HOW OLD ARE YOU? ARE YOU IN COLLEGE OR HIGHSCHOOL, WHAT GRADE? A SENIOR JUNIOR SOPHMORE OR FRESHMAN?'

i just turned seventeen last april. i don't know how i will be able to get through april 17th without brayden this year, my 18th birthday will be a reminder that brayden isn't here to celebrate too. it will be hard for everyone. i am a senior, now. even harder, my brother didn't get to finish highschool. i am planning on going away to school, i was going to stay but after brayden died, i don't think i can stay in this town any longer. too many bad memories.

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'THATS NICE, THAT YEAR WAS ALWAYS MY FAVORITE. SO ANYWHO, LETS TALK ABOUT SOMETHING THAT YOU LIKE, GIVE ME TEN THINGS THAT YOU ABSOLUTLY LOVE TO DO'

i love to run, infact i am on dayton's cross country team. at least there's one thing that hasn't changed. i am a huge fan of ryan reynolds, he shares my humor so any of his movies i like also. i like girls, but i am quite shy when it comes to them. of course, i love to text, because i hate the sound of my voice when it echos in the phone. i love to write, and my hopes are to become a journalist of some sort when i get older. maybe i will move back and write for the new york times.

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'HMM, INTERESTING. WELL YOU KNEW THIS WAS COMING..HOW ABOUT DISLIKES?'

i hate that i am a twin. it hurts everyone to look at me, it feels like there is a ghost infront of them. no one treats me the same anymore, especially my parents. it took my mom about two months to be able to look at me for more than ten seconds before she started to cry. i hate making people cry because i look like brayden. but most of all i hate looking in the mirror and having to see him everyday. i am not the type to cry, but sometimes i just have to. i hate to cry. i hate the color orange, it's just kind of annoying and gives me a headache. it was brayden's favorite.

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'WOW, THATS VERY INTRIGUING, YOU ARE A STRANGE YET UNIQUE PERSON.. WHY DONT YOU FURTHER ELABORATE ON YOURSELF, WHAT ARE YOU LIKE?'

i guess i am a bit quiet now a days. i was always quiet, even when brayden was here though. i've always been the conservative one. i don't know why it was me that lived, everyone loved brayden and i was just there. no one knew my name, they thought i was brayden some of the time. or they called me bray's brother. i am the smarter one, though. i care a lot about my schoolwork, but now i feel like i need to step up my game and keep going what brayden left behind. he would want me to finish his legacy, right? he was my best friend, even though he may not have known it. but it was hard to be away having that twin telapathy thing. so you can imagine how this has changed me and how hard it has been on me. even harder than everyone else is having, even though they don't believe it.

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'THATS COOL, WELL I KNOW ALL I NEED TO ABOUT YOU..HOW ABOUT THAT FAMILY OF YOURS EH? ARE THEY NORMAL, MESSED UP, SECRETIVE, BROKEN APART..WHAT?'

my parents are normal. you know, as normal as normal gets i suppose. the only thing about us that is different from a lot of people is we have enough tolerance to live in new york city. my mom and i have a pretty broken relationship right now, she can't look at me. she tries not to listen to me, i know it hurts her, so i try not to talk to her. it makes me upset, knowing that there's nothing i can do to fix it except get plastic surgery. i know she's not mad, it's just that it feels like a ghost is walking around the house and it's not brayden, it's just me.

my dad is better than my mom, he was the tough one and acts like we can get through this. but i have heard him crying at night. i think it is good for everyone that i am going back to dayton, my parents won't see me as much so it'll be better for them. i feel bad that i hurt everyone. i can't help it, but sometimes i feel like everyone would be better off without me now.

i'm not sure how my sister feels about it. it's been hard on everyone so i try not to ask her how she feels about me looking exactly like brayden, even though she probably has her own opinion.

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'WOW, NICE FAMILY TREE. WELL WHAT ABOUT YOUR HISTORY, WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE SO FAR'

brayden and i's 16th birthday. our parents told us there was no way that even one of us would get a car, so of course we were pretty peeved about it, even though we lived in new york city, we technically lived on staten island so dayton was not a very quick walk over. they at least wanted to take us out to dinner, although being out to dinner with your family was the last thing we wanted to do on our 16th birthday, we ended up going to a little country-club looking place and when we went inside all our friends from dayton and middle school were there for our surprise party. we were stoked about it, it was the best night for both of us. but, to top it off, our parents bought us both a car. brayden got a red ford mustang and i got a black dodge charger.

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'HOW ABOUT YOUR WORST MEMORY?'

i don't like to talk about it, but the day of the shooting. i thought that my siblings were fine, this stuff didn't happen to us. i found my sister, but i couldn't find brayden anywhere. they began to evacuate the whole school, and i tried to go out at last minute when they would force you to get out. i had heard gunshots from the cafeteria earlier, and now i knew they moved to the library because teachers were migrating students from it. so i checked in there, and the worst moment, memory, day, minute, second, hour, you name it, happened. i found brayden on the ground, he was still barely alive. he coughed, i picked him up, and he moaned. i carried him out to the front of the school, where an ambulance took him to the hospital. i sat in the back with my sister watching brayden slip away. he was pronounced dead right before we got to the hospital.

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'WELL THATS GOOD, I THINK IVE ASKED EVERYTHING I NEED TO ASK, IS THERE ANYTHING YOU WISH TO TELL ME BEFORE I GO?'

i hate that i am an identical twin. everyone hates to look at me because of brayden. everyone hates me because i look like him. everyone hates to talk about me because it reminds them of him. i just don't see a point in living and being around anymore.

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THE ROLEPLAYER

'HI FROM THE ADMINS, WHAT CAN WE CALL YOU?'

sheila.

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'AND HOW OLD ARE YOU?'

if you really must know, i am 18 years of age.

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'COOL COOL, WHAT IS YOUR EXPERIENCE WITH RPING?'

about three years.

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'SO, WE WERE WONDERING... BE HONEST! DID YOU READ THE RULES?'

i'm above them. (;

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'ALRIGHT, ONE LAST THING. WOULD YOU EVER BE WILLING TO HELP ME ADMIN IF WE NEEDED IT?'

sheila is an admin. (:

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